thoughts provoking

we have different responsibilities in different stages of life. when we were little, our worlds were always filled with love, fun and laughter. we did not have to worry about the next meal. our main concern was when would my next play time be? it seems like we did not have a responsibility then but i think it is wrong. our responsibility was to bring laughter into the family. it made our parents jump when we first called them. it made them excited when we could walk. it brought a smile across their face when they saw us running into their arms when they came home from work. that's what we were supposed to do then.

teenhood was the rebellious period for most. it was the time when we dared to challenge the superiors. we started to have our own mindset and hated rules and regulations that were not in favour to us. we hated restrictions and wanted more freedom. adults always claimed that studying hard and well was our responsibilities. thinking back, it should be having as much exposure as possible. i learnt the most when i was in secondary school. although the environment was not the most ideal one, it really pushed me and forced me out of my comfort zone. it came upon me now that my responsibility then was to learn and grow as much as possible.

when we start working and forming family, the sense of responsibilites will be heavier. now, it is not a matter of own's survival. it concerns a group of people who you love. you want the best for them so no matter how tough it is for you, you just have to push on. even if there is no purpose and how frustrated you are, you just have to do it for their sake. to put it in a nasty way, it is like living a life for the others. but we should all be optimistic about life! we should be willing to take up this responsibility because giving is better than receiving.

i think this responsibility shape our thinking at different stages of our lives. you may feel very irritated, frustrated, angry, pissed off, being used after an incidient now, but when you look back in 5 years' time, you will look at it from a different angle and realise your reactions at that time was irrational, illogical, childish or even stupid. so, just take everything in your strides.

i just came home from a community service project. it was a simple affair to celebrate mid-autumn festival with the senior citizens. it touched my heart when i saw the smiles on their faces, they told us they enjoyed themselves and thanked us for our efforts. after the event, some of them were sitting around at the viod deck and it seemed like any other day. they were sitting alone and waiting for night to fall. ARGH! sometimes, i just hate reality. but at least i know that i had done something special for them today.

there was this old couple who i MUST mention. the husband is very caring towards the wife even at such an old age. when the wife went to the toilet, he waited for her outside, held his hand and guided her back to their seats. how many couples actually bother to show love to each other in the public when they are old? it just makes me wonder will i be like them in the future? they made me believe that marriage is a beautiful thing.



shall talk more about my own mid-autumn festival celebrations after i upload the photos. i better upload fast or else 5 people will chase after me for my head. one last important thing, for the sake of zhai, IT IS VERY HAZY NOW!! I HATE THE SKY AN WEATHER.